New Year's Eve

New Year's Eve. That wonderful time of year when everybody's happy, the snow falls making the night glitter and the fireworks display beautifies the night.

Oh, who am I kidding?

New Year's Eve. That annoying time of year when everybody's drunk and gets into fights, you freeze your butt off in the bloody cold, no sign of snow, perhaps some rain, the fireworks keep you awake all night and cause like a million bloody accidents cos of the drunken idiots that set 'em off.

Sorry if I spoilt your festive cheer and New Year's spirit. Here, have a fiver and go buy yourself some. (Gettit - spirit?).
Yeah, I know; I'm losing my touch. *Shakes head solemnly*
*Sighs*

The Cost Of Loving You

Just finished it. I dunno. It's okay, I guess. Bit different from what I usually think up.

The Cost Of Loving You – Komal Josan

She opens her eyes
Only to find
Not to her surprise
There he lies

She sits up
Looks by her side
Into his blue eyes
And tosses his arm aside

She feels no love, no hate
It’s like some sort of apathy
She does not know if it’s fate
It’s like she just cannot see

Does he love her?
He says he does
Should she believe him?
Is it genuine?
But when he touches her
And when he whispers
She sees so clearly
But pays so dearly too
The cost of loving you

He caresses her face
Not a trace
Of regret to be seen
On his face

He holds her hand
And she understands
What he demands
After all he is a man

She feels no love, no hate
It’s like some sort of apathy
She does not know if it’s fate
It’s like she just cannot see

Does he love her?
He says he does
Should she believe him?
Is it genuine?
But when he kisses her
And says he misses her
She sees so clearly
But pays so dearly too
The cost of loving you

They must remain discreet
She remembers
Walking hand-in-hand across the street
She remembers
When he’s with her, it feels right
When he’s gone, late at night
She remembers
The cost of loving him
She bears on her shoulders
The cost of loving him

She feels no love, no hate
It’s like some sort of apathy
She does not know if it’s fate
It’s like she just cannot see

Does he love her?
He says he does
Should she believe him?
Is it genuine?
How can she be sure he does?
How can she be sure she does?
Is this really love?
She wants to ask him if it’s love
Cos when he’s with her it feels right
And when he kisses her goodbye
She sees so clearly
But pays so dearly too
Oh the cost of loving you

He'll catch me if I fall

I'm not afraid to fall
It means I climbed up high
To fall is not to fail
You fail when you don't try
Not afraid to fall
I might just learn to fly and
I will spread these wings of mine

I'm not afraid to fall
And here I told you so
Don't want to rock the boat
But I just had to know
Just a greener side
Or can i touch the sky
But either way I will have tried

I'm not afraid to fall
I've fallen many times
They laughed when i fell down
But i have dared to climb
I'm not afraid to fall
I know I'll fall again but i can win this in the end
-Superchick "Get Up"

Close My Eyes (I'm Flying)

Guess who it's inspired by? ^^ <3

Close My Eyes (I’m Flying) – Komal Josan

I always felt an air of unreality
Every time I tried to imagine you with me
And today I could have never fathomed, see
I didn’t know it could be real

I close my eyes as you kiss my neck
Your touch feels nice, and you give me a peck
You hold my back and kiss me deep
It’s like I’m flying and I can’t see where I’m going
You’re in control, just don’t let go

You ask me if I’m okay, you hold my hand
I’m just too nervous but you understand
You say it’s okay, we’ll just take it slow
I make you promise to never let go

I close my eyes as you kiss my neck
Your touch feels nice, and you give me a peck
You hold my back and kiss me deep
It’s like I’m flying and I can’t see where I’m going
You’re in control, just don’t let go

You know me
You tease me
I never thought you could
But I beg you
And I try to
Refrain from telling you it’s good

I don’t know why
I’m not thinking straight
I touch the sky
But move back, I’m still afraid

I close my eyes as you kiss my neck
Your touch feels nice, and you give me a peck
You hold my back and kiss me deep
It’s like I’m flying and I can’t see where I’m going
You’re in control
You’re in control

I close my eyes as you kiss me deep
Your touch feels nice, and I can’t believe
Then you hug me tight and say you love me
It’s like I’m flying and I can’t see

I close my eyes
I’m flying

That Annoying Pass-time Game 2

I remember I said I'd start with the word "Fun" next time but I've decided to spice it up a bit, be adventurous and go for a four-letter word.
Here we go!

Kiss
Miss
Mist
Fist
List
Lust
Must
Mast
Last
Fast
Cast
Cart
Fart (lol)
Dart

I'm going to go finish my banana now. Remember everyone:
The point is look both ways before crossing the road and always carry a banana.

Best Day Ever

I love him. End of.
I'm so stupid! I forgot to tell him that! I was with him a few hours ago. *Nods*
He is cute! We kissed, made out and er.. yeah. No, wait, I shall write it. Nobody reads this anyway. We 69d. I'm not sure how you use 69 in a sentence but.. we did.
Came this close to making love but I chickened out. He said it's okay and he understood.
Besides, this gives him another reason to see me. ^^
I took some pics of him while we were driving back to where I parked my bike (all part of my oh so clever plan) so people believe me.
Can't write more, Mum's on the prowl.
Parents *sigh*

That Annoying Pass-time Game

I'm bored. So I have decided to play this game. It is the same game I played last night when I could not get to sleep.
It's simple really. You just start with a word and are only allowed to change one letter of that word to form another one.
For example:
Mat
Cat
Can
And so on. M from mat becomes C for cat. T from cat becomes the N for can. Got it? Then I'll begin.

Mat
Map
Sap
Sat
Fat
Fan
Man
Can
Cat
Cot
Lot
Lit
Tit (as in Blue Tit - the bird duh)
Mit
Fit
Fin
Fun

And I'm going to stop there. I'll start a new one starting with "Fun" next time. If you actually read that, well, then I feel you have a high threshold for boredom.
That will be all. For now. *Shifty look like that dog from The Simpsons*

Merry Christmas(!)

Yes, Christmas time is here yet again. It feels like just yesterday I was excited and eagerly anticipating my thirteenth birthday, I couldn't wait to be a teenager. And now, well, let's just say I'm not as eager. I do not care for Christmas but wish you a good one all the same.
Now, I know I don't get presents (sad, I know) but I know what I want for Christmas.

The Point

To carry on from where I left off; I shall tell you the point of everything. Please keep this in mind:
The point is look both ways before you cross the road and always carry a banana.
*Nods*
Knowlege is realising the street is one-way, wisdom is looking both directions anyway.

It's just us against the world, love

Us Against The World - Komal Josan

Our friends, they laugh
The don't know the meaning of love
I watch as you stand for this crap
I know you feel the burn
It's crazy but I think
I should just go, take off with you
And maybe then I'd see
What it really means to live

Cos in the end it's us against the world
I didn't know anything before it
Won't know anything after
Cos in the end it's us who'll have the last laugh
We'd better decided fast
Cos it's now or never

It takes more than one
It takes a couple before you see
That you're missing all the fun
And the one for you, well he's
In love with you too
But you can't be too sure
Don't know what to believe
He doesn't how to prove he loves me

Cos in the end it's us against the world
I didn't know anything before it
Won't know anything after
Cos in the end it's us who'll have the last laugh
We'd better decided fast
Cos it's now or never

We've so long for this moment
Let's never forget it
I can't believe it's happening
It is so beautiful, babe
I'm so glad you're here for me
Like you'll always be

Cos in the end it's us against the world
I didn't know anything before it
Won't know anything after
Cos in the end it's us who'll have the last laugh
We'd better decided fast
Cos it's now or never
You know I love you
I know you love me too
And in the end it's just
Us against the world

They can laugh now but I know we'll always have the last laugh <3

I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored. Aaaaaaaaand I'm bored.
I started doing my PE past-paper but didn't get most of the questions so I decided to check my Facebook and then couldn't stop. I worked on my novel a bit too. Wrote another page. Dunno where to take it now though.
While I was on Facebook, I was re-reading old messages and convos (conversations) between Nick and I. He is soo sweet!
Right now, I'm writing this, listening to music, downloading music and chatting to SJ.
Nick's got me hooked on Snow Patrol now. My recently added songs on iTunes are as follows:

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's
Set The Fire To The Third Bar - Snow Patrol
Rule the World - Take That

Everything reminds me of him. Especially this bit from Hey There Delilah:
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time that we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Cadre: The Assassination

I'm bored. I've been working on my novel: Cadre: The Assassination. I'm nowhere near finished but I'm rather pleased with it so far. I haven't really planned the whole story out in detail.. okay, so I haven't planned it out at all but I've got a mental idea of how I want things to be. And I think it's more, how should I put this, "fun" this way. I mean, you never know how things are going to turn out even though you're the author. So, in a way, I'm making it up as I go along.

Cadre: The Assassination is a story of love, unrequited love and passionate love, murder (duh), betrayal, trust and confusion. The main character in the novel is Komal ^^. She's, well, she's me. Just a bit different. (Come on, it's a story! I'm allowed to play around with things!)

So, anyway, Komal gets a call in the middle of the night. She does not know who it is. The caller tells her to cooperate and get in a black car waiting outside. She refuses, of course. He's a stranger, after all. She runs to the master-bedroom to find her parents in a deep slumber (cholorform). She still refuses to go along so the caller decides to call for backup and she is carried off by The Man In The Black Suit (yes, I do love saying that!). She blacks out.

In the next chapter she wakes up in a strange room where everything is silver. She realises two other people are in the room with her; a man and a woman. She recognises the man as the caller. He says his name is Nick (no, this has nothing to do with the Nick I know for I wrote this before I even met him!) and the woman is Danielle. Nick goes on to tell her why she is here but, seeing as they're all tired, he tells her to get some rest. She cries herself to sleep.

The next time she wakes up, she is drenched in sweat. She can't stop thinking about the nightmare she had. She presses a black button on the side of the silver bed, like Nick told her to, and he enters. He begins to explain further of why she has been brought here and where 'here' is.
And that's as far as I've got. Chapter 3, page 6.
Oh, I forgot to mention the Prologue. It rocks. =) Just a bit of info the guy, Nick, searches for about Komal.

This is an extract from Chapter 1, page 3.

Seated in his cluttered desk, facing his high-tech monitor, he grinned; happy with himself. A woman shook her head from behind him.
“You didn’t have to do that,” she said.
He turned around, still grinning from ear to ear.
“She would have come to, you could have at least told her your name or who we were”
“It’s more fun this way,” he protested.
“It’s more dangerous this way,” she said and started walking towards the coffee maker where she stopped and turned to face him.
“Oh and one more thing,” she said. “Don’t mess her around”
He grinned again, of course he wouldn’t. She was to be one of them soon, anyway.

© Komal Josan 2007

Update

Dad finally agreed to let me go biking on two conditions: I didn't take the camera, and I was back in 20-30 minutes. The first I'm okay with, but 20 minutes is nothing! I guess you could say it's better than nothing but.. still.
I wonder what's up with Nick, he still hasn't replied. I hope everything's okay. I guess he's just busy..

I'm dead inside

I hate my life. Period. Everyone knows that.
But I hate my parents even more. I had the perfect plan! I spend so long perfecting it and now, now there's just no bloody use.
My parents always fuck it up. Everything fucking thing in my fucking life is fucked up. I'm fucked up. They say it's "for my own good". Yeah? Well, you know what, Mum, Dad? FUCK YOU!
Go to hell! All my friends are allowed to go out alone, why can I go biking? It's not bloody fair! I'd only be out for like an hour or even less!
My Dad said I can go if he comes with me. But I just want to be alone! Why can't they see that?? I hate them!
I think I'm going to go through depression again.. I just need some time to myself, to chill, relax, be alone (for once), take the pain and stress away. The least they can do is grant me that, isn't it? After all, I'm already supposed to be doing the Mocks along with the MY5s, aren't I? It's so not fair! Just half and hour! 'S all I'm asking! I just want to feel like I have a bit of freedom for once!

Even Better!

I can't believe it! I can't believe it!!
Just waiting for a reply, then I'll fill you in on everything. ;)

Quaint Fainting

I ROCK. Totally.
Guess who just got herself a date? Uh huh.
Go Komi, almost your birthday, still gonna party like it's your birthday.
Oh, God, I seriously can't wait! I think I'm gonna die.
*Faints*

Okay, okay, I'm being serious now. Oops, guess I'll have to fill you in on the details later as my Mum's hovering round me and I don't want her to catch wind of this. She'll tell Dad and then he'll interrogate me and it'll all come out and end before it's even started.

I Love You (unfinished cos I can't be bothered)

I Love You (Unfinished) - Komal Josan

I never ever thought I could feel this way
Until you came along
Now I'm thinking different, it's so perfect
I'm just so glad you're gonna stay
With me forever
I don't want anything to change, it's so innocent

I can't believe
Out of every other girl in the world
You chose me
It's weird how the truth unfurls
You come around and without a sound
You kiss my lips and I'm in pure bliss
I love everything you do
But most of all I love you

Happy, happy

On another note, I taught myself how to play Happy Birthday on the keyboard again and Caroline taught me a rather cheery tune. Happy, happy. Nothing's wrong. Everything's fine, just fine.

Stress!!

Exam stress
Family stress
School stress
Friend stress
Love stress
Life stress
ARGH!
I'm going to diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie. I swear, it's unbearable! TOO MUCH BLOODY STRESS!
First I thought it was just the mocks that were freaking me out, now it's my whole entire life that needs sortin'. SJ (initials duh) really opened my eyes and the stuff he said really got me thinking. Let's make a list of stuff I need to sort (out).

• Myself.
• My life.
• School stuff.
• My love-life.
• My friends.

I think that pretty much covers it. My parents have been shouting at me for aages to revise, do my homework but when I counter them with the argument that I've done my homework and I'm on a break they simply look over my shoulder to see what I'm doing. I can't get a moment's peace! PRIVACY, PEOPLE!! I mean, hello! It's my life! I can do what I want with it! They had no right to go snooping around in my math book! They probably noticed the hearts and stuff cos they've been acting weird ever since..

I should go. It's getting rather quiet. Too quiet.

I wish I had Photoshop. Then this pic would rock. Totally.

Like this one. Totally. Parents suck.

Psyche! Psyche! Psyche!

Hallelujah!

The hols are almost here!!
Wooooo! Wednesday lunchtime, school's out! And I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!Well, I would be if I didn't have all this homework.

• A chapter of Geography; notes and questions.
• Past PE IGCSE paper.
• Past Geography IGCSE paper.
• Revision: Math.
• Revision: Geography (test Monday).
• Revision: Science.
• And a load of other bits and bobs I can't really remember right now.

If I fail I am doomed. If I suceed I am still doomed. For I am Komal. I shall always be doomed to failure unless.. unless..

Oh how I crave him.

XxX Kisses XxX

I know what I want for my birthday, I also know I can't have it and it hurts so bad. I can't go on like this. Oh the pain, the agony. I fear leaving Belgium and not being able to say goodbye. Kiss goodbye. It's like whenever he ends his texts/messages/emails whatever with XxXxX or Kisses or Love ya I just die. He is soo sweet and ever so romantic. He geniunely cares. Not like other guys. You know, I made a deal with myself that I wouldn't fall in love again until I was sure I could handle it. So then when I first met him and he asked if he could go out with me I said no. I could see he was devastated but he said it was my decision and if that's what I wanted he would just have to accept it. We got talking and soon I ended up giving him my phone number. I tried to deny the fact that I had feelings for him but in the end he was just too irresistible. God, how I tried to get him out of my head. But he was everywhere. I couldn't block him out for a second. Next thing I know, I'm telling him I love him. Sheesh.
Note to self: never hide your feelings.
You can't choose who you fall for. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. I should stop now. I still have to do my Geography homework and this is just killing me. I mean, writing about it does make it a bit better, in a way. But it still hurts.

The Winter Show!

It was okay, I guess. Just a bit of fun. Great to see everybody there! Sengy, Mary, Maxine, Ognev!! Wooooooooooo! It was really funny, too. Especially the dance. We rocked. Check out my

Facebook for more pics. I'll add a few here but I can't be bovvered.

The Sound Engineer was so damn cute! I can't believe Dad didn't film Henny or whoever it was that thanked him, he was so bloody cute!

He so totally looks like Nick! Except Nick's taller, has brown hair, and blue eyes, and doesn't show his boxers as often as I know he'd like to ^^. But apart from that..
♥ He was soo hot!! I think I'm going to die! ♥

Yes, well. Back to some more pics, as promised.

That's me on the train back to Zaventem and the warm sanctuary of my tiny little flat. I like this pic. HEY! Brainstorm: I could use this pic for the school calendar!

Note to self: remember to ask Jerome. I'm off now. So cold. So bored. Need rest. Need Nick. Need some sweet lovin'. ^^

I shall kill you..

I swear I shall kill you. I shall kill you so bad you die.
I totally love saying that! But I'm serious, I shall kill you.
And I know how. You know I know how. I know you know I know how. And you know I know you know how. I know you know I know you know how. And you know I know you know I know you know how.. Confused? Muahahaha. Just goes to show how much power and authority I have over you. I rawk. Totally.
You are doomed for I shall kill you. I shall kill you so bad you die.

My shadow's only one that walks beside me

I'm walking down the road
Of doom and I walk alone
I don't know where to go
So lost and so alone

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
I feel so down and lost and I can't find me
If only I could open my eyes and see
The truth in front of me

I'm walking to some guy
Standing in the road, I ask him why
He's holding up that sign
Saying "I need help, I'm not alright"

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
I feel so down and lost and I can't find me
If only I could open my eyes and see
The truth in front of me

I'm getting out of line
So they say, I can't find
All the reasons why
Why, why
I don't know why

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
I'm feeling down and lost and I can't find me
If only I could see
Oh
If only I could see
The truth in front of me
The maybe
My shadow wouldn't be what walks beside me
I'd feel alright cos I'd know that he would find me
Whenever I fell and then I would believe
Cos he'd walk with me
Then I'd see
The truth in front of me

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams was stuck in my head and I randomly started typing the lyrics out and wrote my own parody.

Unrequited again?

I miss the love, the interaction, the feeling. Haven't spoken to him in 3 days and counting. It feels like 3 years. I wonder if it's something to do with the op.. But I thought it was supposed to be tomorrow or Friday.. Hmm. I wish I knew. I wish I could help. I wish I could be there. I wish I could be with him. I wish I was with him right this very second. I wish I could see him, just a glimpse would suffice. Is that too much to ask? All I want is a minute, a second. *Sigh* I wish my parents were more lenient. Then I could see him anytime, anywhere. Well, within reason.
What am I doing? I'm writing to a computer. That or strangers but no-one reads this blog so..
Yeah.
I'm going crazy; seriously, it's driving me mad. Don't wanna be lugubrious. Need him. =(

No-one understands,
No-one really knows.
No-one gives a damn,
Not that it shows.
Everyone forgets,
Everyone ignores.
Everyone regrets,
But not before they go.

Just a short poem I just thought up. Dunno what to think anymore. Doesn't really matter as whenever my mind drifts off, it always seem to find him. And then I get lost in him, drown in his memory. Wow, is that deep or what?

How I Shall Get Into CERN

First of all I shall briefly explain what CERN is.

Conseil Europeen pour la Recherche Nucleaire (European Center for Particle Physics) is the world's largest particle physics laboratory located in Geneva, Switzerland. The World Wide Web originated here - largely due to the efforts of Tim Berners-Lee but that's another story.

Now, back to how I shall get into CERN:

1. Read "Kidnapping for Radical Right-winged people (like Hitler)"


2. Kidnap a CERN member/employee


3. Find a way to shut him up


4. Demand access to the LHC and a petty ransome of €1 million


5. Get into CERN


6. Follow original plan (see "How I Shall Come Into Power")


7. Try not to get killed

There. Simple, innit? I wonder what would happen if anyone from CERN read this. I mean they did invent the WWW after all..

How I Shall Come Into Power

Hitler decided against violence and opted for power through parliament but I have found another "easier" way out. My plan so far is:

1. Go to CERN
2. Use the LHC (Large Hardon Collider) particle accelerator to split an atom, creating antimatter
3. Suspend the highly unstable antimatter in a canister of some sort
4. Use the antimatter as a weapon of mass destruction
5. Threaten the leaders of the free world with it
6. Bomb anyone who opposes me
7. Rule the world.

See? It even ends at point 7 - my favourite number. And that is how I shall come into power and finally rule the world. Now I just have to figure out how to get into CERN..

Perfect

Perfect - Komal Josan

Why does everybody think I have everything?
Nobody really knows
I can't ever think a single thing
Without thinking of you

You're the only one I know
Who really understand me
You're the only one who sees
Me for what I am not what I could be

I'm not perfect
I'm not normal
I am not "it"
I don't understand
I don't get it
I can't find it
I always forget
And cannot comprehend

Everybody seems to feel that I know it all
What do they know?
I've got trouble they could never understand cos I can't
Either, I need ya

You're the only one I know
Who really understand me
You're the only one who sees
Me for what I am not what I could be

I'm not perfect
I'm not normal
I am not "it"
I don't understand
I don't get itI can't find it
I always forget
And cannot comprehend

I can study all my life
I can lock myself up in my room
With the light on, and try to forget
But I can't block you out
Of my mind, no I can't
I'd rather die than go on without you
Cos I'm so in love with you

You're the only one I know
Who really understand me
You're the only one who sees
Me for what I am not what I could be

I'm not perfect
I'm not normal
I am not "it"
I don't understand
I don't get itI can't find it
I always forget
And cannot comprehend

You're the only one I know
Who sees me for what I am

Franglais

Salut!
Je vais te parler de un de mes meilleurs amis. Il s'appelle Nicholas et il habite en France. Il a les cheveux bruns et les yeux bleues. Il est super sympa, dynamique, drôle, intelligent, mature, et super cool! Il est trés populaires et je suis toujours jaloux parce-que il a beacoup des amies (des filles). Eh bien, tout le monde sait que je l'aime. Mais c'est trés compliqué. Tout les gens veut savoir quel âge a t-il, que fait-il.. etc. Il parle français, mais il est anglais et il n'a pas l'accent française et les sons drôle quand il parle français. On s'amuse beacoup parce-que on a beacoup des choses en commun. On est pas trôp différents. Je vais faire quel-que chose d'autre maintenant. J'ai pas quoi mais je m'en fou et parler français bugs me.
Wooo je can't believe je wrote french pour tout that temps! J'adore talking franglais - c'est le best langue!
Biz,
Komal

Blinded By Darkness

Blinded By Darkness - Komal Josan

I’m falling into darkness
It’s all I can see
The Forces of Darkness
Whatever they may be
I don’t know where I’m going
Or where I’m really from
My only hope lies in forgetting
And letting in someone

I can’t find my way around
Everything’s so dark
Maybe I don’t want to be found
But still I leave my mark
It’s like a trail for everyone
Who thought they knew me before
Before I fell in darkness
And existed no more

I wish to find something
But what that thing may be
I haven’t the foggiest
Maybe someday I shall see
But before all that
I know there’ll come a day
When I’ll forget and be forgotten
And slowly start to fade

------------
I had to write something, I can't keep it all bottled up. I love him so much. =(

*Beep*

Facebook Maniaaaaaaaaa. So addicted. No homework. Wooooooooooooo! At least it was good until I found out Nick's in hospital. =( Meh. Something bad had to happen. Come on, this is me, isn't it? There's always something, always a catch. And it was going so well and all!
*Sigh*
Fuck this shit, I'm off. Soz for the obscenity, Jérôme, but I can't take fuck anymore.

Tests Over! (Well, almost)

Tests

1. Science
2. Math
3. French

The first part of the French test is done but we still have another part to do on Monday. Overall, the tests today were pretty easy. Math bah well, I finished with like 20 mins left so.. yeah. And French was just about Mon/Ma Meilleur Ami(e), the last bit asked us to write about our best friend and since I had so many, I decided to go for Nick. Yes, well, predictable, I know. I can't help it!

5 Reasons To Be Sick

1. You get to miss school.
2. No homework.
3. You get to stay in bed all day with your parents waiting on you.
4. You usually get what you want.
5. You get to go see your totally hot doctor*.

*If you have one. If you don't, sucks for you, and if you do woooooo! ♥

I Need You!

I want piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. But where the hell am I going to get the 3.14159265th part of a cayk.. or pie??
I'm sick. Nick was sick. But he has epilepsy. Now it's my turn. But I don't have epilepsy. I have a cold. *Nods*
Oh, and I've lost my voice - which is why I didn't go to school - so if you find it please give it back to me. Please don't blackmail me for it. (€10 and that's my final offer!)
Nah, I love my voice. I can't sing without it!! How am I to launch a singing career without a voice! But at least I can still write songs. Hmm. Yeah.

Talking In Whispers

Talking In Whispers - Komal Josan

He hears the shot but what happens next?
He mind is blocked, he can’t make any sense
What the hell’s wrong? Why can’t I move?
I remember that song, it alters my mood
The songs they sang are now not even whispered
It’s ‘cause they are banned, everyone’s talking in whispers

Nobody looks anyone in the eye
And not even I can defy
I’m scared of them and their brutal ways
I hang my head in despair and dismay
They’ve changed everything, it’s all their rules
They deem the Resistance pitiful fools
I think of my father and how I must save him
There is no other who was ever as brave

His memory goes blank, is this the end?
He tries to open his eyes but the message won’t send
His brain is not working, it won’t obey
All his commands just go to waste
He tries to move his arm but it won’t budge
Maybe this is the end, it was just too much

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Well, my pessimistic side had to kick in sometime, didn't it? This poem started out like the other "Not My Business"s but ended up as "Talking In Whispers". Don't ask me why.
I'm going to bed. 'Night!

Not My Business 4

Fourth and final Not My Business poem by yours truly!

The phrase echoes in his mind
As he reaches out to what he needs to find
The hands he meets is not ones seeks
They’re the hands of strangers; there’s a fire in their eyes

Who are these people? Can they be trusted?
They’re Beto and Isa, and, nowadays, who can be trusted?
Everyone has to look after themselves
No-one else left, not their business

He reaches out to the inner depths
He needs to see for himself
But like the old woman said
It’s not my business
It’s not my business

Not My Business 3

Third go:

His mind is stuck on the same sentence
(Not my business
Not my business)
He can’t get it unstuck; it’s all he’s thinking
(Not my business)
Not my business?

He knows he can’t give up, but where to next?
(Not my business
Not my business)
Who can he really trust, who’s really with him?
(Not my business)
Not my business?

He asked the old woman if she knew anything
But all she said was, “Not my business”
Is this what’s happening all over town?
All over Chile? It’s all going down?
Are the Junta taking over?
Are they here to stay?
Won’t somebody stop them?
Make it all go away

Not My Business (second go)

Not My Business 2 (my fave, I think)

Louder and louder
The voice, it taunts him
It’s losing its meaning
But it still controls him
The same three words
Play over and over
Until he’s lost and confused
And in their power

But he mustn’t give up
He cannot lose hope
He’s all that he’s got
More he doesn’t know
There’s Beto and Isa
They claim to be his friends
But who can he trust?
When will this end?

Louder and louder
The voices in his head
Whispers taunting
All the words she said
The old woman from the house
Said, “Not my business”
Andres is trapped now
But it’s not my business

Not My Business

Some poems I wrote for English. Based on the novel Talking In Whispers by James Watson.
My first go:

He knocks on the door
But nobody answers
He knocks some more
But still there’s no answer
Horacio’s family are gone
And old woman tells him so
He thinks about the danger
But decides to move on before

Before the Junta find him
And take him like his father
Before their brutality kills him
Or maybe some other
Like the innocents they shot
They weren’t causing any bother
But the Junta didn’t care
For them they were as any other

He thinks of the old woman
And of what she said
When he asked her what she knew
She replied, “Not my business”
Is this what we’ve become?
He ponders as he walks
It might be so, but I’m not like some
Who cower away and daren’t talk

I shall rebel and not give in
No matter what they throw at me
I’ll take what I’m given
Beto and Isa agree with me
Should I really put them in danger?
He thinks to himself
But they said they were my friends
He tries not to dwell

Interview With Energizer Bunny AKA Fred

I have reason to believe that Energizer Bunny is evil. I took an Energizer element sample, added a few bits and bobs and discovered another isotope of Energizer. I call it Energizer 13/6. I went to interview Energizer Bunny to ask him how he felt about this.

Me: So, Energizer Bunny, how do you feel about this?
EB: For the last time: my name is Fred!
Me: Yes.. alright, Fred. How do you feel about this?
Fred: I feel it is an outrage! How dare-
Me: Go fluffy and run up and down. Go on!
Fred: What? I've told you, I get paid to-
Me: Oh, go on!
Fred: No.
Me: Please?
Fred: No.
Me: For me?
Fred: No.
Me: Pleeeeeeease?
Fred: No!
Me: I'll scream!
Fred: ALRIGHT!
Fred puts on his battery pack, fluffs himself up and starts running up and down the room.
Fred: Happy? *Out of breath*
Me: Very.
Pause.
Me: Now if only you could-
Fred: Get out.
Me: Just a min-
Fred: GET OUT!
Fred punches Me, rendering Me unconscious.

NEWSFLASH: ENERGIZER BUNNY HAS BEEN ARRESTED, CHARGED WITH BATTERY.

Tests Galore

Science test tomorrow. *Nods*
And a Drama rehearsal at lunch time. *Nods*
No lunch break = no free time, no last-minute-revision time, no Nick time.
O.o
Yeah.

We've Come So Far (Complete)

We've Come So Far (Complete) - Komal Josan

Just last year I was sitting
Waiting for something
Someone to come save me
Save me from what?
I don't know

Just last month before you
Came and changed my whole
Life forever, and you saved me
Saved from everything
I know

You could be the one
I spend my whole life with
I die with
You are my only one
I plan to keep you
Never leave you
Don't ever go
I love you so

Don't you see how far
We've come from where
Ever we started from
I needed you
You needed me

I still can't believe
You really mean all those things
That you say about me
I still need you
You still need me

You could be the one
I spend my whole life with
I die with
You are my only one
I plan to keep you
Never leave you
Don't ever go
I love you so
We've come so far, so soon
Don't leave me now (don't leave me)
You showed me the stars and moon
What did I give you (in return)?

But you still want me
You don't care for material things
And you still love me
Just the way that I am

Oh
We've come so far (echo)
From what we used to be

You used to be desperately
In need of something
Or someone and that was me

Now I've you, you have me
We're complete
Finally